The abuse at a young age takes away our spirit and then as Sra survivor freedom we don’t really go for the things we want. We tend to give up halfway or completely avoid the risks necessary taking, if you want to advance in life. Because we don’t feel worthy of achieving our goals, we sabotage ourselves.
Unlike what many may think, Trafficked survivor of childhood abuse often tend to be very promiscuous. People often seem to think that such an experience would leave you being practically asexual and for sure, some survivor’s sex life might be non-existent, due to what happened to them. However, as strange as this may sound, because we were so highly sexualised from such a young age, sex is often the only way we know how to connect at all.
I was made to believe that it was my fault that I was raped, that I always Sra survivor freedom misbehaved and that if the grown-ups ignored me, it was definitely my wrong doing that caused this. So, imagine how guilty I’d feel now, if I hadn’t made sure my stove was switched off ten times or that the door was really locked 100 times, before I leave. If there was to be a fire or a break in, I’d have to kill myself. I am often already exhausted, before I’m even out the door to go and attend the actual activity, I was heading to. And I know, I am not the only survivor dealing with this.
This last one might be simpler and seem way less dramatic, but I wanted to mention it anyway. Because Occult deliverance were practically robbed of their childhood, we tend to make up for that later in life. We can be or act very childlike
Sometimes I feel judged for being like that. So, I just wanted to say to anyone who hasn’t been through this, we Trafficked survivor need to be a little childish sometimes. It helps, it makes us feel as though we can have a tiny part of what was lost back. And at the end of the day, we are capable of adulting. So, please let us have some innocent fun every now and then.
I could continue this list and probably never come to an end. At this moment, I still feel I’m not doing my fellow Sra survivor freedom justice with this post and I hope they’ll forgive me for that. This is, of course, just an excerpt which stems solely from my personal life experience. Other survivors would have different, more profound things and stories to add.
Finding your voice is important in any case, but for abuse Trafficked survivor it is also an essential part of the healing journey. And if you’re not comfortable telling your story to others, it may be enough to tell it to yourself. Very often the trauma, we survived stays stuck inside of us, quietly wreaking havoc. Others might not understand what we’re going through and surviving abuse can be very lonely at times. So, while we need to be careful whom we share our stories with
I think it is fair to say that for most Occult deliverance of abuse, it feels good to have our feelings validated. If we choose to tell our stories, lots of people, if not most would acknowledge that our experience has been terrible. But imagine, you have a kind of story to tell that will often be met with doubt, rather than sympathy.
If you are a Trafficked survivor of any kind of abuse, you may find it hard to forgive the person or the people who have done this to you. And you might think, why forgive them at all??! They have done horrible things! Yes, they did do those things and to question the ‘why’ when it comes to forgiveness is fair.
This is not a behaviour driven by insanity, they are making a deliberate choice and that choice is to hurt others. Of course, I’m not really telling you anything new – all abuse Sra survivor freedom have to come to grips with this harsh truth many times along their healing journey. I just feel, that it might be something to keep in mind when it comes to the topic of forgiveness.
As Sra survivor freedom of abuse, we often cannot tell when it is time to stop blaming ourselves for what happened or is still happening to us. We get scared and too petrified to tell anybody the truth of what is really going on, because we are trained by the abuser to believe deep inside that our feelings are not valid.
We have been been taught that we have no right to your own emotions, that they are in fact Occult deliverance ridiculous and society teaches us, that it is not civilised to show anger and frustration – this may go for women especially, but male survivors of abuse will also struggle for sure, with these emotions that should have no outlet. Psychopaths and narcissists take advantage of this societal rule.
After this discouraging experience, I thought for a moment that there are simply no therapists out there, that Trafficked survivor might be able to get me through my piled up emotional baggage. This may seem unreasonable, but I’m sure some can relate. Losing hope can happen oh so quickly. Sometimes, you are not even aware that you lost it, only an outsider might be able to tell. I believe that, unfortunately, it is easy to lose hope, especially for abuse survivors.
It seems completely illogical to a ‘healthier’ soul. And yet, this is what we Occult deliverance of abuse often find ourselves pondering. We think that maybe on some level ,we provoked it. Maybe we didn’t make it clear enough that we don’t like, what’s being done to us or worst of all, maybe we believe on some level that we deserved it.
This is a horrible concept, but it is just one example. Many Sra survivor freedom of all kinds of childhood or later in life abuse experience toxic shame. I have heard some experts explaining it as taking on the shame of your abuser. You basically absorb it, so they don’t have to feel it. Of course many times an abuser will also gaslight and guilt trip their victim into taking on the blame and shame.
Like a lot of Trafficked survivor of childhood abuse, I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts almost my entire life. I also tried once to end my life, but somebody found me before it was too late. I was only a teenager back then, however it wasn’t a cry for help – I really wanted to die. But more importantly, I am glad today to still be around.